Friday, December 28, 2012

Friday's Letters

Dear Readers,
I promise to start really writing more blogs.  I am going to start dedicating more time to my blog!

Dear Sponsors,
You all have an extra free month.  And I will be emailing you all very soon with some fun stuff!! 

Dear Christmas,
I am sad that you are over, but I had an amazing Christmas!!

Dear Wedding,
Plan yourself a little.  I am just saying LOL.  No I am actually having fun planning you. 

Dear Self,
Time to get your butt in gear.  The new year is the perfect opportunity to start focusing on you and making yourself happy.  You have a wedding in 5 months, and you wanna look SEXY!!!  Ha ha so get it together! 

Dear 2012,
You had a lot of downs, but you also had a lot of ups.  I am very ready for 2013!! 

Saturday, December 22, 2012

I have been a terrible blogger this week.

I have been so very busy with life that I have just not had time to sit down and blog.  BUT that is all going to change ASAP!!  I will be making time to blog.  There is no reason that I can't dedicate at least an hour a day to my blog, I mean all I do at night is watch silly shows.  So this is my promise to you, I promise that I will be a better blogger.  I appreciate all of my followers and I want to give ya'll some awesome things to read!!

Now I am off to the mall to finish my Christmas shopping!!  Wish me luck!

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

A day of silence

My heart was ripped apart on Friday when I heard of the Sandy Hook tragedy.  As a mom of a school aged child it really hit home.  My son is my world and I can't imagine how the families are feeling right now.  My thoughts and prayers are with them and I will be observing the day of silence in remembrance of the victims.

Thursday, December 13, 2012

I am helping my friend celebrate 500 followers!!

 Happy Thursday!  I am part of an awesome giveaway for an awesome lady!  If you have not met Kim from Singlebou[b]t then you need to go and check her out.  Not only is she a great blogger, she is also super sweet and she has just reached 500 followers!  So hurry and enter this amazing giveaway!  There are some really great prizes!!  


(Contributor to $20 Group Gift Card ~ Winners Choice)

(Contributor to $20 Group Gift Card ~ Winners Choice)

(Personalized Stationary & An Elite Ad On Yellow Umbrella)
($20 Target GC)

(2 months 200x100 ad space)

(Large Ad Space)

Raising Reagan
(Reagan's Premier Ad Space 175 x 175 - Sidebar Ad)
Facebook  ~ Twitter ~ Bloglovin ~ Networked Blogs

Discover. Create. Live.
(2 months Medium ad spot)
Facebook ~ Twitter ~ Pinterest ~ BlogLovin

Of Thoughts and Things
(1 month Medium Ad Space)

Aren't they a great group of ladies?  I think so!

Enjoy getting to know them and entering!

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

Engagement Pics!!

Dustin and I went on Saturday to Helen's Gardens in League City to take engagement pics.  I LOVE LOVE LOVE taking pics, while Dustin on the other hand hates taking them.  Ha ha!  I had a great lady and friend take our pictures and I love how they turned out.  Well actually I only have 3 right now lol but I am totally in love with them.  So here are the 3 that I have, and I can't wait to get more so I can share them with everyone. 
I love how this one came out!!

I think this is my favorite.


Friday, December 7, 2012

Friday's Letters and a fangirl moment!!


Dear Sponsors,
I can't wait to get to know ya'll better and introducing ya'll to my readers!  Thanks so much for sponsoring me.

Dear Mooch,
You are a spoiled rotten dog and I don't think I could love you anymore than I do.  You are such an amazing and sweet dog.

Dear House,
Please be as awesome inside as all your pics are.  I would love to live in you.  FINGERS CROSSED!!

Dear Kinesiology,
You are going to kill me.  Please get easy so I can actually understand you!  Thanks so much!

Dear Pinterest,
Thanks so much for all the awesome ideas!  I am excited to do projects this weekend.

Dear Lestar Jean,
OMG!!!  Thanks so much for not only "liking" my instagram pic, but commenting as well!!  You have totally made my year.  Talk about a total geek out moment!  Lestar Jean is a wide receiver for the Houston Texans  and he is one of my favorite players!

ljean3 is Lestar Jean!!  Not kidding when I say I jumped up and down when I saw this!! 

Thursday, December 6, 2012

Its OK Thursday and FREE sponsor spots!!

Its Ok Thursdays

Today I am linking up with Neely@A Complete Waste of Makeup for Its Ok Thursdays.  I love this link up! 

Its Ok.....
That I have not started Christmas shopping and I only have 19 days until Christmas.
That I have a tree up in my living room with no lights or ornaments on it yet.
That I wish I could just snap my fingers and the house would be decorated.
That I want a new tattoo....ASAP!  
That I am SUPER excited about going to look at a house tomorrow and that I want it to be perfect.
That I am kinda scared about buying a house...uhhh cause that is a pretty big deal!!
That I wish I would be happy with just getting married in Vegas and not having to worry about all the stuff that goes with planning this wedding.
That I am beyond devastated the venue I wanted to use is not available on my wedding day, which is why I just wanna get married in Vegas.
That I am ADD and have looked at no less than 5 other blogs while doing this link up. 
That I was scared of being judged when I wrote my domestic violence blog. 
That I don't know how to segway out of that last sentence.  
That I have FREE sponsor spots all month if you use the code "Playoff Bound" and I hope that you will get one!
That I want the Texans to STOMP the Patriots on MNF.
That I can't stand Tom Brady and think he is a pretty boy.
That I think the Texans are the BEST team in Texas...heck in the entire NFL!!
That I think Andre Johnson is amazing for what he did for the kids in Houston CPS!

That I have a MAJOR crush on JJ Watt!! 

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Sponsor Time

I have decided to start offering up Sponsor Spots!!!  I know that I am still a very small blog, but I want to grow and I think that this will help.  Since I am such a small blog I am offering all my spots for free this month!  Just use the promo code "PLAYOFF BOUND"  Ha ha why playoff bound you ask....well because my Houston Texans clinched a playoff spot on Sunday.  

Domestic Abuse

Yikes Domestic Abuse is a pretty heavy topic for a blog but after this weekend with the NFL player killing his girlfriend and then himself it has really stirred up a lot of old feelings.  So I am going to get serious for a little bit.  I hope that is ok. 

When I met Ashton's dad I thought he hung the moon.  I fell in love with him instantly.  We had a wonderful and perfect relationship for about a month.  Then one day everything changed.  I remember exactly what happened the day he first hit me.  It was my Godson's first birthdays and I wanted to go to the cemetery to visit their graves.  Well Craig did not want to do that, he wanted to watch a movie.  So I told him that I would just go by myself and would be back when I was finished.  Well he flipped out and started yelling at me.  I had no idea what the heck was going on and it scared me so I just kinda stood there and that is when he pushed me down and punched me as hard as he could in the back.  I remember screaming in pain and fear but being paralyzed and not able to move.  He started crying and telling me how sorry he was and that he would never do it again.  Well I loved him so I forgave him.  I told him that if he ever did it again that I would leave him.  He promised it would never happen again.  Well needless to say he lied.

I don't want to go into all the times that he hit me, because it was A LOT!  I mean as hard as this is for me to say, he hit me pretty much every day.  One day he chased me into his kitchen and when I fell into the corner he held a knife to my throat and dared me to move.  We got in a huge fight at a concert one night, because I said hi to an old friend, and he drove 2 hours out of the way JUST so he could beat the HELL out of me for a longer time.  BUT I almost begged him to hit me in order to stop the emotional abuse I was getting.  That was worse, it really was.  He would tell me how fat and ugly I was.  That no one else would love me.  That I if I left him I would be alone.  That I was worthless and would never amount to anything.  Then he would say he loved me despite how fat and ugly I was, so I better stay with him because I was lucky that he loved me.

I know what you are thinking.  Why didn't I leave him?  Why did I put up with it?  TRUST me I know!!  And as generic as it sounds, I thought he loved me and I loved him.  Yes he hit me and yes he emotionally destroyed me, BUT I thought I could change him.  I thought that when he promised that he would not do it again that he meant it.  He was my first love and I thought I would die without him.  I didn't think I would find anyone else.   I was wrong. 

Craig and I broke up 3 days before I found out that I was pregnant with Ashton.  I was going to be a single mom and I knew even though it was hard, that it was the best thing for me and for my son.  He would be raised in a house filled with love and not anger.  It took a long long time for me to forgive Craig for all the pain he caused me, but I have.  He and I actually have a civil relationship.  He adores his son and has recently gotten married.  He has changed for the better and I am happy about that.  I still struggle with the effects of the emotional abuse.  I have a pretty low self esteem, but it is getting better.  I hide a lot of my insecurities behind my quick wit and humor. 

I was lucky enough to find a WONDERFUL man who loves me and tells me I am beautiful and wonderful all the time.  I find that I am pretty needy on that end, I crave hearing that, because I was told the opposite for so long.  My point of writing this is to just be real with everyone.  Also I hope this will help people to not judge people in abusive relationships.  I know it is really easy for people on the outside to say "Just leave" but it is not always that easy. 

Ok well I hope that I didn't lose any readers because of this!  Tomorrow I will be back to my fun, lighthearted self!